Priscilla's Blog

Friendship for me has been bumpy, inconsistent and sometimes it’s me fighting for my life. I won’t know how to be your friend unless you teach me; it might be a condition, I don’t know but what I know is, I really like being on my own without disturbance.

Weird, right?

I think it is an introverted attribute. 

I don’t know how to be a friend and I really don’t like it when people try to shove the friendship thing down my throat. It feels too restrictive and it makes me nervous about the arrangement before hand. Don’t get me wrong, I like being kind to people and it doesn’t mean I want to have a special place in your heart. I just see being unkind as something I can’t  be.

Anyways, when I get to be friends with a person, I’m always in their space whenever I can and in most cases I’m the disturbance. (lol)

You’re probably wondering how I make friends, right?

Most of the people I call my friends today are those I met in Class or Church or Work and by continual communication, we saw fit that we could get along right without causing grievous harm to each other. 

Save for those, I’ll keep being in front of my computer saying ‘awwn’ at friendship posts without having any actual friends because honestly, I don’t know how to make friends.

Friendship is a beautiful thing and having genuine friendships is what everyone should aim at. Having people who are like family, supporting you, pushing you to be better is something everyone should pray for.

It’s okay to have a weird friendship track record, I mean, sometimes you look at yourself and see the person you could have turned out to be if only you chose different friends or were a better friend yourself.

An important thing to note here is that understanding and communication are key in friendship. No one might want to be your friend if you don’t communicate how you feel about different things and in the same way compromise on some things you can for friendship.

P.s, Let your conscience and convictions guide you.

The most important thing for me in friendship is having friends that show up. This covers everything, because they’re there for you and you’re there for them.

You shouldn’t do life alone and you should learn to be vulnerable with people you can trust. Don’t bottle up emotions; let it out and enjoy all the bubbles and glee there is to friendship.

Can it get difficult?

Yes, most certainly. Amazing friendships don’t just erupt, people choose to stay together and strengthen their bonds, find a common ground and leverage it.

I hope this helps rid you of the pain friendship might have caused you and strengthens you to be a great friend to yourself first and then to others.

Thank you for reading.